Do you know people who threaten you if you don't do/think what they say? That's pretty camp.
Then, there's when people say you've already succumbed and who harm you thinking that means your submission.
I feel as tho every thing that makes me happy people think I don't deserve. Like, the dance stuff, maybe even drinking water.
I'm not living to fear others who insist I've messed up and it's not okay cuza who I am and, moreso, who I'm not, supposedly. None of this should hit a nerve in anyone. If it does please come out right now. That's dangerous. Sound familiar? That's how I'm treated. I am sick of hearing of this stuff! Can a person fear a threat and find something useless? The Bible says that's wrong, too. I know people secretly disobey that which they proclaim as right, like this. They change the rules when dealing with a mixed race person, someone who can act European, probably, but is not allowed. People are so vicious in wanting to be treated white. They snap back like a snake in the grass! I guess they aren't any better than other people in their desires at least. You have to let people be who they want, and that includes other races. Why am I on psychotic pills and told I am schizo? Seems like most other people have the problem with the way things are and are becoming in the good change. Sometimes, I worry people don't care about others, too. Do you know people who have problems with everything? I also don't like people who think everything others do means "d****." If I can make something of my life, it should not be disposed of, regardless of who exists in the universe. I just know things have not been perfect. I find some of this amusing. I have a problems blog and don't post every problem. It seems, no matter what I do, I will just get trapped and attacked by the ways of the world and nice people who do it to stay popular/with a good reputation. A lot of what I say is right and I still live miserably, like that's okay. It's like they've wanted to say anything could make something seem right or wrong and they made their decision already, reveling in me seeming to be begging them, who for some reason have the ability to alter my life. Some pretty mean stuff happened. Yes, I feel threatened illegally. No one should have to do this. Some of it seems like a tradeoff, but it's still not okay. People never tell me when they have a serious problem, and then I get in trouble anyway.
Some things aren't as bad, but I think people want to be punishing me. I just run into issues in my personal life. Some people are unbearably mean to me and it's hard to encounter some.