They keep acting "***" leaving me negative messages all the time.
They are trying to get me and to feel stimulated by them inappropriately/sinfully.
It seems like it always has to happen. I don't have much peace. Just know they do this like it doesn't matter just for me.
They keep pressuring me and want me to admit I'm bad in my thoughts. They are promoting it as good and acting like I'm just some thing and they get to make bases to annoy me. I don't like this. I think this is for my dad or grandma, the way people are strangely nice and then go mean. A lotta people in my generation have this problem.
I don't wanna be picked at being made to feel I am bad all the time, like I'm torn down daily like some statue.
Everyone is under the radar to annoy me.
I already said I disagree, and they keep fighting that. It just pops up out of nowhere.
My point in this post is that I have people out there who have mixed emotions about me.
Like, the *** messages like it's all that to get it out on me for their insecurities I have encountered.
I feel like I'm being whipped for like not being pretty growing up or something.
Their stimulating me inappropriately and acting like it's okay, like, all the time.
Their trying to make me feel like a sinner and hurting me rather than believing me.
Setting me up and pretending about what happened.
Then, for some reason me saying what happened is wrong, like this. Maybe, some of what I said has been pointed to something to be made worse for me. I just keep getting on a role. I noticed the inappropriate stimulation. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone before, but I didn't mean to. Guess I messed up. This doesn't seem right, tho. I didn't do what they did to me. Did you know they believe that if I have a problem with something that even if that thing is wrong it was the cause for my finding a problem with them and try to scare me about it?
You know, something just gave me an idea to write this. I think the little insults are meant to be traps. I talk about it or something and they think I need a bigger problem to get used to. However, there's no time for me to make progress in my life, real work. It's all about rich, snobbish people rattling on about who everyone is until Doomsday comes.
Maybe, I should appreciate what seems like secret messages and then forget about it I guess.