Why was it easier before to not think things you shouldn't, whereas now negativity is prevalent to me? When a negative thought comes up for some reason, people are mean to me.
Also, sometimes I think things and people take them as complete messages. Then, I can't explain what I really think, which is my own business as is for anyone. It's too late.
People seem to like life to be a test, where you have to challenge thoughts quickly using initial reactions when pushed meanly in if you are able to "think straight." So, they are testy and catch you confused and with thoughts put in your mind by others. Me, tho, sometimes I just think things I don't mean how it seems, piece for piece. I don't go back and can't go back because it's too late. I've been *caught*, already.
Some of this doesn't seem easy to solve. It just makes me have to sacrifice.
Furthermore, I do feel my thoughts or that I am being pushed. I can feel it. Maybe, I need to think in new ways.